Well, today is the last day of February... This means we are one month closer to the year mark of seeing the infertility specialist... April will mark one whole year. I had my first round of infertility meds in July... So at least we have some time yet before we reach that 'anniversary'.
Since July, I have gained over 40 pounds from all of the infertility meds. For those of you who do not know me, I am a short little girl measuring in at 5'0". I have always been pretty tiny in nature. I have always been an extremely confident person - but with all of this weight gain, I am becoming more and more self conscious and depressed. I cannot wait until I am done with all of this madness so I can kick my own butt and get myself back to the size that I was at the beginning of all of this.
I would love to say that I can start working out hardcore and losing all the weight now. However, IF I start doing a huge workout regime, I have a chance of messing up my cycle... which I REFUSE to do! haha. And then there is also the fact that it will be extremely difficult for me to lose any weight since I am still taking all of the meds. AND the PCOS causes weight gain and makes it extremely difficult to lose weight. So at this point, the weight gain will probably only get worse... Sooo lame....
I am thinking about starting to walk for a short period of time every day. I think that this will help me to at least keep myself from gaining any more weight... But then again, I have no idea. I am willing to gain as much weight as I have to from all of the medications as long as God will one day bless me with a little bundle of joy....
I only wish I had more self-confidence at this point in time... But hopefully, with time, I will feel better about myself. :)
As always, thank you all for reading!
xoxoxox
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